Learning to Live

There was no time for pain
No energy for anger
The sightlessness of hatred slips away
Walking through winter streets alone
He stops and takes a breath
With confidence and self-control

I look at the world and see no understanding
I'm waiting to find some sense of strength
I'm begging you from the bottom of my heart
To show me understanding

I need to live life
Like some people never will
So find me kindness
Find me beauty
Find me truth
When temptation brings me to my knees
And I lay here drained of strength
Show me kindness
Show me beauty
Show me truth

The way your heart sounds
Makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats
Makes all the difference
In learning to live

Here before me is my soul
I'm learning to live
I won't give up till I've no more to give
No more to give

Listening to the city
Whispering its violence
I set out watching from above
The 90's bring new questions
New solutions to be found
I fell in love to be let down

Once again we dance in the crowd
At times a step away
From a common fear that's all spread out
It won't listen to what you say
Once you're touched you stand alone
To face the bitter fight
Once I reached for love
And now I reach for life

Another chance to lift my life
Free the sensation in my heart
To ride the wings of dreams
Into changing horizons
It brings inner peace within my mind
As I'm lifted from where I split my life
I hear an innocent voice
I hear kindness, beauty and truth

The way your heart sounds
Makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats
Makes all the difference
In learning to live

Spread before you is your soul
So forever hold the dreams within our hearts
Through nature's inflexible grace
I'm learning to live

Space-Dye Vest

Falling through pages of Martens on angels
Feeling my heart pull west
I saw the future dressed as a stranger
Love in a space-dye vest

Love is an act of blood and I'm bleeding 
A pool in the shape of a heart
Beauty projection in the reflection
Always the worst way to start

Now that you're gone I'm trying to take it
Learning to swallow the rage 
Found a new girl I think we can make it
As long as she stays on the page

This is not how I want it to end 
And I'll never be open again 

There's no one to take my blame 
If they wanted to
There's nothing to keep me sane 
And it's all the same to you
There's nowhere to set my aim
So I'm everywhere
Never come near me again 
Do you really think I need you?

I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.
I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.

And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend 
And I'll never be open again 
And I'll have no more dreams to defend 
And I'll never be open again

In My Darkest Hour

In my hour of need

Ha!, no, you're not there

And though I reached out for you

You wouldn't lend a hand

Through the darkest hour

Your grace did not shine on me

It feels so cold, very cold

No one cares for me

Did you ever think I get lonely?

Did you ever think that I needed love?

Did you ever think to stop thinking

You're the only one that I'm thinking of?

You'll never know how hard I tried

To find my space and satisfy you too

Things will be better,

When I'm dead and gone

Don't try to understand, knowing you

I'm probably wrong

But, oh!, how I lived my life for you!

Still you'd turn away

Now as I die for you

My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name

All these years I thought I was wrong

Now I know it was you!

Raise your head, raise your face, your eyes...

Tell me who you think you are, who?

I walk, I walk alone

Into the promised land

There's a better place for me

But it's far, far away...

Everlasting life for me

In a perfect world

But I gotta die first

Please God send me on my way!

Time has a way of taking time

Loneliness is not only felt by fools!

Alone, I call to ease the pain

Yearning to be held by you,

Alone, so alone, I'm lost

Consumed by the pain

The pain, the pain, the pain

Won't you hold me again?

You just laughed... bitch!

My whole life is work built on the past

But the time has come when all things shall pass

This good thing passed away!

Look around
Where do you belong
Don't be afraid
You're not the only one

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by, in doubt
The Answer Lies Within

Life is short
So learn from your mistakes
And stand behind
The choices that you make

Face each day
With both eyes open wide
And try to give
Don't keep it all inside

Don't let the day go by

Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by, in doubt
The Answer Lies Within

You've got the future on your side
You gonna be fine now
I know whatever you decide
You're gonna shine

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by, in doubt
You're ready to begin

Don't let a day go by, in doubt
The Answer Lies Within