Paid in Full

I was nowhere near ready when all it ended
So I hoped we could find a new day; cannot live without you

You gave me the chance, time and again, in vain…
Now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile: paid in full.
Break the chain, but no longer can I take the pain

It's hard for me to love myself right now,
I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you

Needed to be strong, yet I was always too weak
So I can only blame myself for this state we are in
I will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late
Did you change? I did too.
Love can grow from the last grain

It's hard for me to love myself right now,
I've waited, hated, blamed it all on...
You.
I need you, less and less.
Every day feeds this moral decay
Yet I have grown to love you even more

I fall back, and I turn another cheek.
You mouth the words you're not ready to speak
You're scared of me now; no I never had a clue
That I'd become so much stronger than you.

I will take what you have  for me now, if it's not too late
If you like, I will leave; I will not miss the last train again

It's hard for me to love myself right now,
I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you

It's hard for me to love your face right now
I'm waiting, hating, needing being…
Me.
I need you, less and less...
Every day leads us farther away
From that moment

It's hard for me to hate myself right now
Finally I understand me
One day we may have a new me and you

But first I need to learn to love me too.